Reenie Marx

Journaling has long been my favourite tool for understanding myself. In those moments of life when everything falls apart and uncertainty is everywhere writing in my journal helps me illuminate and clarify what’s circling around in my head. Over the years I’ve discovered that if I give these thoughts a little attention they’re far more…

Another one of the many books that sat on my coffee table in those days was The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse by Charley Macksey. I’d frequently open it in the morning just to see what message awaited me. (This one was April 28, 2021)

“How do you love fully, without reservation, knowing that every one you love will die, change or move away?” I began asking myself this question at age 11 and over the years it became a kind of personal koan that I wrestled with and returned to over and over. This time was it was different;…

Throughout those 3 months of dying, his and mine, one of my best teachers was Byron Katie Loving What Is: Four Questions that Can Change Your Life. Her questions became my tools for dismantling the cherished beliefs that had kept me locked into old patterns that no longer served me. She invites us ask ourselves…

When you’re caregiving you can’t always get, or do, what you want. There are pills to be given, meals to be made, visiting nurses, and most of all the need to be ever watchful. You can fight it, resent it, maybe even believe that happiness is doing anything but these menial, repetitive tasks, but when you stop…

Having spent decades doing various forms of meditation and reading books on Buddhist philosophy I recognized early on that it wasn’t just him who was dying, that small part of me, full self- doubts and childhood wounds was also dying. This quote by Suzuki is from Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind.